Saturday, January 29, 2011

Up In the Air

Unfortunately after 3 months, I was let go at my job.  So let's look at the emotions I've been through.  Mad, upset, angry, sad, and most currently disbelief.  I keep thinking it's a weird dream or cruel joke.  Nobody has called me and asked me to come back yet.

Here's how it all went down.  I stopped by Maurices to grab a sweater to wear over the top I'd chosen for the day and ended up buying two.  Then off to work where I was whisked off to the back room.  "I'm sorry Amanda, unfortunately, we're going to have to let you go."  And there was a typical "It's just not working out" and "We hope the best for you."

It's bitter sweet.  I'm upset and angry because I feel betrayed.  Yet I'm happy to be out of there if I wasn't wanted.  Really who wants to be somewhere that no one wants to work with them?  I don't really know if that's how they felt, but that's how it comes across to me.  (And honestly who wouldn't want to work with me?  I'm awesome!)

I just left there with the impression that people felt like I was telling them what to do.  And I find that very odd because I hate confrontation.  (I hate it to the point that I will drive myself nuts thinking about it before and after.)  So I'm feeling like I had a target on my back.  Again I'm stressing that this is just how I felt.

I left one job and took a $700/month pay cut.  Now I'm out of a job period.  So where to now?  I have no clue what I want do.  Do I look for an office job?  Or maybe go back to retail?  Any suggestions out there?  I just feel like I'm done with the hair industry.  I love it but after 7 years I'm still not making it.

So I think that's most of it.  It's really hard to put down in words but there it is

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